Well hello again Cheryl, I haven't sent a thought since January but it doesn't mean I haven't thought of you regularly. Hopefully my lovely John is looking after you and in turn you are looking after him for me. Just 5 months after my love came to join you , I am back to where I lost him (in Florida) - on my own and desperately trying to fathom out why such good and kindly people as the 2 of you , are taken so unfairly. It is breaking my heart . It makes me so mad to know there are such evil people in the world and yet he picks the ones that are an asset to the human race. How are we to fill the holes in our lives without our loved ones who we would have happily laid down our lives for - how do we mend our broken hearts when we know there is no amount of 'glue' that will make that happen. The only way I can survive is by having in my mind that you are now in a peaceful place with no badness , dancing with angels. Smile a big smile and blow us all a big kiss from above - mum , dad , Alistair and I need that (please) With love and huge hugs xxx (Susan D - Muchloved)