After losing my lovely wee lassie Cheryl I thought what else in life could hurt like this, now with hindsight I realise I could still have my broken heart broken once more..So many times my gentle Marion stopped me from despairing when thoughts of my beautifull girl overwhelmed me..She knew I was hurting and would talk in her way of knowing just how I felt, what a precious lady she was.Now I wander throught he house at times and my heart just breaks everything that really mattered to me has been taken away. Friends say I am coping well keeping the house the way Marion did and doing all the things I thought I could never cope with, but their is more to just coping well, no one sees the nights sitting eating alone and looking around the room not really knowing what I have made to eat..All I can see is my beautifull girls, the lovely smiles  the beautiful eyes and the everyday talk of nothing in particular..Nothing really seems right anymore if working out in my garage no marion coming out with a coffee asking how are you getting on. So many little things, our late nights sitting playing the detective games Marion and I loved to do , now I am afraid to do them anymore.Truly deep in my heart i just want to be with my family again, not just getting through these empty days telling everyone who asks how are you doing and the stupid reply from me ' Im ok' No this is not some knee jerk reaction from me I truly just am so very lost without my lifelong companion my lovely Marion..IAN