I have not been writing in my journal much recently, but if anyone thinks time has begun to heal the sorrow of losing this beautifull daughter no, the truth is because the Video of our lovely girl I started so long ago has finally been finished... Each time I tried with high hopes to finish this memory CD to Cheryl the tears just came back again,so I had to stop like so many times before so it has taken nearly a year to finish this precious story video. At every stage of this task I would stare at the lovely smiles in her pictures and ask a million times why Cheryl, watching the news with so much badness and greed and we lose such a kind and gentle soul. So this is why my task has taken me so long to completed, but truly how can anyone tell of such a gentle and precious girl in such a short time she had so mmany ups and downs after her stroke but never ever talked of her problems..Imagine trying to put such a devastating happening out of your mind. So finally it is just a brief story of what she was and meant to us Mum Dad and Alistair, Mum has only watched the CD once and truth be told it broke her heart rather than helped her cope with our loss. I will put this in our wee lassies memory case along with so few little reminders of how special our lovely daughter was and still is to us. To see her memory case in the corner I just have to sit down and stare at it and will myself to open it, then looking at the preious few things say to myself, is this all we have of our lovely girl. Me Cheryl's Dad wear around my neck her favourite ring given to me by Alistair..When the day arrives for me to join my lovely wee girl I will give her back her favourite ring and get in return the greatest gift of all Cheryl's hand. If we could we would put a million tears in beside all the little belongings she loved so much. Like I have said before it is so very difficult to smile when we see the happy reminders, her smile those lovely eyes her so funny remarks, we are still too despairing of her loss and will I think, do so forever. Her life seems sometimes like a dream as life just goes on without her but every day she is in every part of our being. As a young girl she was a joy and such a happy soul, when so very small everyone stopped to look at her and ask her name, she always had a cheeky looking and lovely face. She will always be that happy brightness that we once so took for granted..My words just cannot say how we miss our wee lass, so we just carry on and try to keep our despair and longing hidden, this is how people around us hope we will be but a million tearfull words and thoughts are deep within us to say what she meant to us all. How we manage to carry on knowing how short her young life was for her we have no answers for. Night night our lovely lassie our beautifull Cheryl...xxxxxx